Unexpected day

Form now on, I don't know how to describe the feeling in my heart. I don't know till when this situation will ended. Its hurting me sometimes. I could not even typing the words describing inside, but I know Allah always know what is the best for me and my life... I didn't arguing from anyone, when there is task that I had to face roughly I know I have to be strong to face all this..
" Yesterday is history, past is now, future is the new beginning.. "

How can I repair all this mistaken ?? 
 Ya Rabb, peluklah hatiku.. aku dambakan ketenangan yang selama ini aku hilang..